I had a piece of chocolate today and I don’t feel a damn bit of shame! Trust me, after the holiday debauchery I partook in, a little piece of chocolate is almost insignificant. That’s the great thing about Weight Watchers! You really CAN eat anything you want! And that 1 point was well worth it.

Candy in general is really not a problem for me. Chocolate and peanut butter, now that’s the problem. I took it upon myself years ago to have a spectacular candy dish at my desk at work and keep it supplied with only the best candy I could find. I enjoy having the candy dish because it gives me a chance to say “hi” to co-workers I don’t get to see very often. I have prided myself with hardly touching anything in the dish and it makes me feel good when a co-worker tells me that I have amazing self-control. But during the holidays it was a different story.

I found myself reaching for the marshmallow Santa’s, the mini candy bars, the kisses, and my kryptonite…Snickers Peanut Butter Squares! It just seemed easy to tell myself “screw it! It’s the holidays!” But in that short amount of time I felt my weight creep up and my energy level (once the sugar highs wore off) drop quicker than…well I can’t think of a metaphor but you get the picture. And then there’s the peppermint bark, peanut butter balls, and candied nuts! Holy cats Batman! It’s enough to make a girl lose her self-control. And I did. A few times. But rather than dwelling on the past I need to look forward. What’s the saying? “Don’t judge me by my past. I don’t live there anymore.”

I need to learn to let go of things I have done that I can’t change. If I could go back and not eat those things, would I? Surprisingly, no. Why? Because I have learned from it. I learned that while indulging in those treats every now and then is OK, only I was the one who had control over what I put in my mouth. I learned that though these items are tasty, fun, nostalgic, and temporarily satisfying they did not physically serve me in a way I need. So back to no longer sampling my own merchandise on a regular basis!

Liz